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Counting Down...

2009-12-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

Time Flies...
2009 is going to leave us and 2010 is coming~~~
look back 2009, what had happen? what had yet to happen?

2009
-Graduated from RP
-Start working in NUH
-Getting lesser contact with friends
-Getting lesser LIFE
-Start to earn money and save money
-Growing fatter
-Still single and available...

so New Year, New Resolution!
What i want for my brand new start!!!
i really not sure now...
but at least i need some changes in my life!
Is really enough for this boring life!
I want some changes, i mean good changes for my life!
Not so empty, not so blank...
more meaningful, more contented...

Sometimes i stand inside the train,
then i start to think, what i should do?
sleep? play game? sms friends? reading? call ppl?
I felt my life is empty, without some focus...
everyone has their life...
like CCA? family?Studies? or even Bf...
but somehow i felt that, i don't have...
maybe becos my family is in msia,
everyday back from work, then stay in my room...
doesn't talk much or even see many ppl...
if u ask me to hang out wif my friends,
then i will said, it cant be everyday right?
money is a problem,
not so many friends everyday entertain me also another problem mah!
what should the changes that i can make to change my life?

Perhaps, all i want for my New Year is nothing much but...
....... *smile*

It's complicated... so complicated...
I start to regret...so regretful...
Is that any remedy can be done?
I have no more confidence... I am worried...
I have no courage...
What a Coward Momo...
Haiz...

Emo Entry by Coward Momo...

Update

2009-05-02T22:46:00.007+08:00

Sorry Blog, haven't updated you for quite some time...
Tied up with my Job as I am no longer unemployed!
I am a Junior Medical Technologist in NUH! Yeah!!!
I am now a good girl, sleep around 10:30pm and wake up at 6am!

And thanks to the Swine Flu, i was suggested not to go back msia...
then i am stucked in Spore~~~
Don't know why, after started working, like to go home more often, and miss home more!
and i miss my bebe very very much!!! T.T

Working experience is not bad, just abit tiring!
The ppl there are friendly and helpful! I like them!
Except there is an old lady who is not married and keep on nag at me and order me to do work! No one likes her there! Hope she can retired soon!!! Opps!

Besides the bad old lady, recently realized that a friend's real soul!
She was used to be one of my good friend, however she kept on trying to break my friendship with my other friend, and trying to make use of me! Now then i know that why she does not have a good friend...
she will only find us when she has no one to talk to and break up with her bf...
she likes to be the center of attraction and like to be praised!
I don't understand what i have done that make her feel that i am a threat to her position in others hearts...
Is enough, i am no longer wish to be friend with her, she will just be a passer by in my life!
Thanks for giving me a lesson not to trust someone easily! and please stop testing my friendship with others and stop putting words in my mouth! I really have enough of you, hypocrite!
If you think i am the last one for you to talk to, i am going to tell you that you are not even one of the ppl would like to share my feeling to, thanks for taking me as your spare tyre! Bye!

After saying sad thing! I am going to share some nice thing!
Went out with Ah fu, Jiewen, Shun shen, Weiding, Yi wei and Aigee in my Saturday!

It's been so long since our last meet-up and watch Fast and Furious 4!
Is nice, the effect is good! after watching, you just feel like to speed! haha!!! dangerous ah!!!

Besides Fast and Furious 4, the other nice movie i would like to recommend is 17 again!!!
OMG, ZAC EFRON is HOT!
He is just too charming and attractive!
Other than that, i think the movie is quite meaningful...
if you are given the chance to retun to 17 years old or younger, what are you going to do?
still choosing the same choice or you are going to make a change?
Nice movie, watch it!

Other than working, some casual outing...
We went to Lyvia house last sunday to cook Fish Curry!!!
Cook and eat so shiok!!! but i am not the cook ya!!!
Lyvia, *The Cook*
YunJia, *The 2nd Cook*
Xiang *The General Officer*
Bei *The Dessert Cook*
*Last but not least, the 3 Eaters*

Malaysian Girl Boleh!!! Can cook, Can work, Can can can!
Good deals! Malaysian Girl Best Choice!!! *evil grin*

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End of my updates!
Homesicking... T.T

Ps: Dear Juniors (except my brothers and sisters), please stop asking me about ISC or RP stuff, i have already graduated and no longer in RP! Please seek assistance from other seniors can? Give me a break! Stop pestering me about RP, ISC, PP, FYP, modules!
PPS: Except my brothers and sisters ah! You guys are most welcomed for anything! Love you all!

Graduation Night 2009

2009-04-09T15:10:00.006+08:00

It's time to make us elegant~~~
Graduation Night 2009, organized by Student Council Exco 2008/2009, was happened on 8th of April, which is yesterday!!!

The food is nice!!! i love the food there!!!

besides that, shall let our photos speak~~~

This is me~~~

Proudly present you... the i stars~~~

dun kno y fanny walk so fast????

i like this pic! i like my neck bone!

Miss Orignality Gorgeous, Kaile... Miss Slim Slim Forever, Jieying~~~

eliz and wenhao, both of them are always my pillar!

The green green~~~

Both of my scandals! Johnathan Foo and Melvin Lim~~~

Thank you :)

after a few hours, my feet surrender!!! haha
high heels is not my cup of tea!

Graduated!!!

2009-04-08T12:15:00.014+08:00

Finally I am officially graduated from Republic Polytechnic, Diploma in Biotechnology
*clap... clap*

Had my graduation ceremony yesterday!!!
I have no ideas why i was so happy and excited as compared to my other graduation!
and my dad & mum came!!! yahoo~~~

so who am i looked alike???

Thanks to Bei, Xiang and Shan for the Flower~~~
I have to learn from the sunflower, to look at the brighter side and be positive!!!

Deki: one of the supportive teachers i have met in RP! she is really good!
Wilson: look like milo? or milo look like him???

Jieqi: my future ru chui lao gong, so his future name is Ong Jie Qi... haha
Dr Alvin: my favourite teacher in RP! he is just like my 2nd daddy! opps!

After that, went to have a earlier birthday celebration with my roommate, April~~~
went to have ding tai fung!
the food is always nice, no disappointment!
xiao long bao~~~

went for Shinjuku Incident, illustrate about the illegal immigrants to japan, how they fight for their living, and in the end due to greed and benefits, killing each others!
dun expect there will be fantastic action, but it is a really nice movie!

6th of April, Fanny's Birthday...(the pictures all with Audrey!!!) had a small celebration in our favourite korean restaurant in Far East! we ate alot alot alot!!!
after that we shopped around for Audrey's shoes! really having fun with Fanny and Audrey, what i can remember is we keep on laughing and laughing!!! and Fanny sang in the train for us~~~ *shy*

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I am still waiting for my S pass to be approved... the feeling of waiting isn't really good, and i have been spending money like crazy! I bought some working pants and clothes with Xiang, Chieng and Mei... then still bought a dress for grad night! now i am seriously broke... T-T

Besides that, i have received a bad mail... which is my PHONE BILL is $180!!! i am going to stop calling ppl or sms ppl... i have to save my money back~~~ cant be long winded and naggy anymore!!! i am seriously! going crazy, i really don't know how i can call until 180??? thus, i am somehow depressed due to the 180... i have to save!!! no more spending after tonight!!!

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Went to Lakeside eat the fish soup with Fanny!
the fish soup is nice!!! no wonder the queue is so long!!!
carrot cake and the zhu chang fen are nice too!!!

you can see how nice it is fro fanny's expression...

as i have been slacking for so long... i have watched a few movies,
-race to witch mountain
-confession of shopaholic
-hotel for dogs
-shinjuku's incident
No more movies for this month pls...
i love movies but my wallet feel so empty too :(

momo has to be a thrifty momo!!!
and also positive momo!!!
and also lovely momo!!!
*praying for the work pass to come asap*

somehow miracle did happen to me...

2009-03-15T12:49:00.007+08:00

Momo current status: gotten offered from NUH!!!
Momo relationship status: single...
obviously, miracle happen!!! just a small one though...
hope one miracle work again!
I am quite happy now, but still have to wait for all the confirmation then will spread the good news!!!

Last week mostly spent for interview and went back Msia,
Msia is the best as my home is there,
and it is the BEST HOME!!! hehe!!!
My parents are very supportive and funny...
though sometimes a bit naggy lah...

Weds was our Badminton Outing...
So long nv meet together, miss all of them!!!
After that, went to Pastamania and start our camwhore session!!!

1st pic: Newly Couples
2nd pic: Old Couples

see who are the extra one?

audrey, y u are looking so blur???

fanny demostrate how to kiss a guy!!!

all kissing session... haha!!! our 0.01 cm...

and My BOSS is BACK (temporary) again!!!
watched "outlander" to kill the time while waiting for Cynthia and Chieng,
but they suddenly said cannot make it!!!
hence we had our dinner at Lawry...
was a Candle light dinner!!!!
I was so NERVOUS to eat in those high class restaurant and the food is so EXPENSIVE, but thank you, BOSS!!!

My 1st time eating lobster,

My 1st time have candle light dinner,

My 1st time to Lawry
all dedicate to you alrdy ya!!! haha!!
Thanks for the dinner and thanks for everything,
really appreciate it and like it! Muacks!

Had our farewell party with Boss on Friday,
we started to eat since 12pm...really OMG!!!
thks god i was not feeling very well, hence i didn't eat that much...
Went to Akira, Jap Buffet with 22 dollars,
if you like jap food, go there and try, worth it!
some camwhore before we all said good bye...

god mum and god son...

Took a night rider home and did not sleep,
just shower and went to send Ilung off to Australia...
Seriously, i feel so empty when he went off,
like sth is missing...
and i am worried about him...
hope that Molia will replace me to take care of him...
Molia, u better be guai and dont ever try to slack!!!
she is Molia, the temp PA

P/s: I miss you...really miss you!!!
Meanwhile, i want to slim down!!!
Everyone, support me!!! Motivate me!!!

I am a Slacker...

2009-03-03T13:50:00.004+08:00

The weather today is so cooling...
My bed and blanket is so sticky...
I am so glued to my bed and blanket...
Can't help...

My status still the same... umemployed!
But i have an Interview tmr!!! and Thursday!!!
thanks god, i am so excited!!!
hope miracles happen on me!!!

Went Marche to have our meet up with Aunty Susanna,
she is like a elder that i respect who work in RP library...
She is always nice and cheerful, teach us many stuff...
Hence, we decided to meet up with her though we have graduated!!!

I couldn't wait for everyone to try the food...
why u guys take such a long time???
1st time to Marche,
the food is SUPER NICE!!!
i love the fruit juice over there!!!
very big and very fresh!!!
but the PRICE also very de NICE!!!
5 ppl = S$ 174...
So conclusion is I am broke now!!!

I guess all of us are broke now,
but we remain pretty ya!!! *shy*

can tell that mek is really suffering from post-broke- syndrome
My hard work on Saturday was gone~~~
i worked in the NATAS fair as a surveyor,
from 12pm to 6pm, 50 dollars!!!
just abit far...expo!!!

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I am seriously bored these days...
I don't know what i want, i don't know what i am doing...
feel very uncertain...
feel very pressurized...
should i study? should i work?
where should i study?
where i can get the money?
haiz... full of doubt, no answer...

besides that, i can't stop wondering about my feeling...
what is my feeling?
who i have feeling towards?
i keep on telling myself that i don't have any, i have no one...
when it comes, i guess i will know...
but i guess i am just too bored,
too bored to think about this stupid stuff again...
I shall stop this thinking,
walk to the other bright side of my life!!!
when it comes, he will come and knock my door, i guess!!!

Momo jiayou!!!
PS: I love you~~~ wor~~~
I guess He's just not that into me anymore...
so i shall move on and walk to my bright side ya!!!

Jobless...

2009-02-27T18:42:00.008+08:00

Momo currently status: Unemployed...
Momo relationship status: Single...
So, pretty obvious, nth miracle works on me...

I had my Valentine's day with my Sexy Voice
and had it with my mum and Bebe~~~

I love Bebe, i guess he loves me too
(since he cant talk but only bark)

Grad Nite Msia Outing Part II Rek, Jon, Melvin, Wenhao and I went around JB to shop for Grad Nite lucky draw and prizes... and we had not forgot to fill up our tummy with msia KFC!!!

And we had our meeting in PS Cafe to discuss further abt Grad Nite...

Meeting with OSA friends...
so long nv meet and welcome Ilung's temporary return!!!

However, Ilung was not like the healthy and cheerful one anymore...
Though he become slightly handsome, his health is turning worse due to he is too smart and think too much!!!

Mental does really affect the physical...
Hope he will be alright soon!!!
Hope you will be alright in indo and aus though i am not with you!!!
Don't miss me too much!!!
Watched "Ps I love You" while Ilung was sleeping, the show is nice, but the book is nicer!!! husband is sweet but i wish that he will be by myside all the time...

I love his room's plasma TV!! is too nice!! can i move it back???

Meeting with Ama to catch "Marley and Me"

very very touching,
i cant help myself keep on crying!!!
really really really touched, must watch!!!

Had a "Kopi" session with Yunjia to celebrate her post birthday...
we chat a lot...
i wish that my love life will go smooth!!!
wish you too, girl!!!

Had a nite out with Rek, Jon, Mel and Eliz...
went to eat dou hua and you tiao, so nice!!!
then went to newton to eat some stingray, lala...

went to Sengkang park after that, quite nice!!!
and the Mercedes is very nice!!!
P/s: to my future husband, i want a mercedes to drive pls!!!

Had a movie with shan "He's just not that into you"
I think it is a very nice show... very meaningful!!!
I feel like i am just like the girl GIGI,
keep on waiting for call back..
rmb the quote "when some guys didn't call, that means they are just not into you"
I wish that i am someone's exeception, i am the rule!!!

Last night had a good chat with Cynthia,
she taught me how to be a attractive girl!!!
Don't let guys take me for granted...
Don't ever let guys read me like a book...
I am still trying hard, but i hope i will learn it fast!!!

Since have more time now, better spend it on exercise more, went to gym with Hiong, played badminton with audrey and her bf, jiabao... the feeling of exercise is so shiok!!!
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These few days like to listen to my mp3, would like to intro few songs to all my readers:

-Lucky -- Jason Mraz & Colbie Cailat
--> I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
------> i don't dare to be in love with my best friend as i scare it ruins everything if he doesn't like me

-Love Story -- Taylor Swift --> You will be the prince and i will be the princess, this is the love story... ------> How i wish i can a princess too...

-Laughter in the Rain -- Neil Sedaka
-->Laughter in the Rain
------> very nice, i feel like to laugh in the rain with some special one!!!

-To Love a Woman -- Lionel Richie & Enrique Iglesias
--> I don't know how it is but she has the power, she can make me laugh when i wanna cry... ------> The whole song is meaningful and very real, i think it illustrates well on how a guy love a woman...but i guess the feeling about a girl likes a guy will be somehow similar!!!

-没有如果 -- 梁静茹
--> 如果我说爱我没有如果, 真的爱我就放手一搏, 还想什么还怕什么, 快牵起我的手
------> if you like me then dun if alrdy, juz go ahead and try!!!

-还是好朋友 -- 梁静茹
--> 还是好朋友比爱人长久,不能牵的手按在心头...
------> best friends is always longer than lover, hence put the holding hand in our heart... that is wat i scare to confess to my best friends (if really fall in love with him), i think it applies to many ppl too... but i still think that if u really like/love someone, should give a try, else will nv going to happen....

What is my True Fear???

2009-02-13T11:13:00.001+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Death
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

My true fear is losing you~~~

Graduate, CNY, Outing & Mei's Bday

2009-02-12T23:05:00.003+08:00

*wiping away the dust*
*wiping away the spider web*
It is a Cow Year!!! Moo~~~
and I am unofficially graduated now!!!

Emcees in SAS Graduation High Tea in Megu,
was quite bad for me!
I am not comfortable with the partner, and i did not really perform well!
But thks guys for supporting me!!!
The food there was just so so but the deco was nice and cozy!
Fanny and Cindy were singing that day!!! so nice!!!
They are really Proud of ISC!!!

milo, just jealous!!! who ask you not coming!!!

Here comes my CNY~~~ Moo~~~
Was really enjoyable!!! Eat, Drink, Rest, Play, FUN!!!
then i guess i gained weight!!! HOW HOW HOW!!!

Meet with S3S2 gang!!!
SO SHIOK!!!

Illegal Gambling!!!
i am the cameraman!!!

Meet with Rachel & QQ!!!
They become prettier!!!
SO SHIOK too!!!

Mei also came to my house play play!!!
SO SHIOK also!!!
and then she become our cameraman!!!

Went to Sentosa with Milo, Audrey, Fanny and Her Bf!!!
As fanny's bf was a bit not feeling well, fanny decided to bring her bf out and asked us to join and chill together!!!
I learned how to play beach ball!!! yeah!!
I did not bring spare clothes but can't resist the water temptation and went for it!!!
So in the end, Fanny and Audrey have to dry my Bra and Pants in the toilet!!!
Haha!! *shy*
3 Pretties!!!

Annually Lao Yu Sheng Activities
with Mei and Ching!!!
Hope this year smooth smooth and all wishes come true!!!
then went to Mei's house to Bai Nian!!! Yeah!!!
Not yet married so i GOT ANGPAO!!!
SCANDAL!!!

Went out with Milo,
supposed to watch Underworld BUT he was late!!!
Hence we just went back straight and had our lunch @ Kisahi!
Chat about Foon Yew life!!
It is so memorable and funny!
I miss the life there!
so if back to that time, would both of us meet and know each other that time???

Rek, Jon, Melvin & Eliz came to Jb and find me!!!
Drive them to Jusco Tebrau City, see see look look,
they bought many FOODS back lo!!!
KFC, Egg Tart, Bread, Donuts...

Mei's Bday Celebration (Pre)
Was sick in the morning when i woke up!!!
I thought i will die of sore throat plus flu...
thks mei for the prescription else i think i really cant make it that night!
Went Orchard around 1pm, walked around to look for present,
so sick lo... then meet ching at 3pm and get our present for mei,
THE PARIS HILTON!!!
our one month pocket money!!! cry!!!
Mei u better use it wisely hor!!!
Since is still early for meeting mei,
Ching and I went to Cine to watch UNDERWORLD!!!
It is nice i would say!!! just sad that i never watch the first 2 so cant comment much!!!
But one thing that is confusing is abt the ENDING!!! anyone could help???
Went to Shokudo for dinner!!!
NICE!!! I love the PASTA!!!
Though i sick, i still can taste it is NICE!!!

wah, you can see both of them hold the bag until so tight!!!

Thanks to Mei's Medicine,
I am really feeling better and stronger now!!!
Yeah~~~
but i am not well mentally as VALENTINE'S DAY is COMING!!!
Whatever lah~~~ Don't care!!!

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Sometimes i just wonder,
will you choose someone that have same habits, same mindset, same personality to be the one or choose someone that don't have all those but you can chat with, happy together with???

I will choose someone i can chat with and happy together with...
similarity and sameness is not a problem for me!!!
together with someone so similar to me, will just be dating with myself,
no more surprises, no more shocking, no more process of understanding!!!

Difference is not a problem, is how we going to manage and understand each other!
I like the quote from Derek,
"a couple comes from difference, but tune to each other for perfection"
I believe the most important thing will be
trust & love & happiness & care

No matter how much i say, is not important...
how you guys think are more important...
if you think i am saying sth right, think it again and don't lose someone by your side..
if you think it is bullshit, just reconsider about someone beside you, who know you have some other thoughts???

Chinese New Year is Coming...

2009-01-14T22:24:00.008+08:00

OMG!!!

I am going to graduate in not more than 2 weeks!!!
And i am going to start working soon...

Today went out with Milo to have his post birthday celebration,
Fanny was intended to come
however her bf's health is still not stable and
she has to take care of her bf... How sweet she is!!!
*Pray hard that Her Bf will be alright soon*

Miki and I are the Gossip Girl!

After breakfast, went to catch Ong Bak 2 in orchard...
Not bad, just realized that Tony Jaa (the main lead) has only a few lines,
all he did was just fight and fight... -.-|||
Sat outside Taka and coincidentally saw Miki and Jason,
and we started out Photo Shooting session...
As we saw too much of couples having their sweet sweet session openly,
and we start wonder, Y WE R NOT BAD YET NOT ATTACHED???
Am I really that smart until no guy dare to woo me???
Guy likes dumb girls izzit???
Anyone just hit me, i want to be dumb!!! =x
Miki and Jason went off to catch Yes Man,
then Milo and I walked walked to Far East,
and we decided to have our New Year Haircut!!!
this is wat i called sexy!
before haircut...
after haircut
Last Last Tues,
our dear Facilities Officer, Jonathan Foo,
give us, Rek, Wenhao and I a ride~~~
nice man!!! thanks alot!!!

Last Thurs,
Joyce and I had our farewell dinner with Jinyan, Maro-chan
as he is going to Japan...and he is already in Japan now...
Have been knowing Jinyan for a year from the Taiwan and HK Trip!
As always, he has never changed, Mr Nice!!! I started to miss you again, Maro!!!

Maro...the guy who didnt put me inside his luggage to Japan

Last Fri, had our Oil One Long Save (OOLS) reunion dinner,
and we had our Tuk Pajang together...
credit to our Little Nyonya, Ah Keong!!!
Thanks Jon for organize it!
Maybe it will be the last time we had together alrdy!!!
SAD LAH!!!
our tuk pajang

eat ah!!
drink ah!!!

Last Sun, went to have my FINAL CNY Shopping wif *drum drum*
Miss Ching and Miss Mei!!! Bought 2 dresses!!!
and Make up...hehex
I am officially broke and not going to buy anymore ya!!!

ching's brand!!
so Mek and I jealous and fight!

Going to graduate soon...
these 2 weeks is like so busy and pack!!!
once i see the timetable, i feel so demotivated!!!
how i wish i have more time to go out wif friends!!!
more time to chat wif everyone!!!

I dun kno... I so miss everyone!!!
Fanny, Milo, Meiyi, Wilson...
Jon, bei, xiang, yunjia, lyvia, weisheng...
Rek, Jon, Wenhao, @men...
I really dun kno....
and once again, I AM STILL SINGLE!!!
VERY LONELY LO!!
so couples, pls dont kiss kiss hug hug in front of me can???

Update Update!!!

2009-01-05T21:59:00.006+08:00

Sorry once again for the late update...
I admit, i am lazy...plus busy also!
Hence now come my long update...

ISC Secret Pal Week ended...
My secret pal name coffee who has a gf and my stand is kind of awkward,
hence i did not really enjoy much in the activities that day...
However, my besties, Ching and Mei purposely came over and made my pretty day, thus, the day become different!!! lolx! Thanks Girls!

We are Pretties!!!!

My 3 weeks vacation was mainly spent for WORKING!!!
I was a salesgirl in Anthropology in Raffles City and Holland Village..
Fanny too... We are hardworking girls and we really work hard unlike...
Besides working, my holidays still painted with some colours
hence i still got LIFE (*shout out loud*)

1st: 12th Dec, Meiyi's Birthday
after working, went to Pasir Ris to celebrate her birthday together!
Meiyi is my new friend but she is very nice and helpful!
She is very cheerful too!
We stayed overnight there but not in chalet...
hence i took a nap in the McDonald, and Milo drools lo!!! Dirty King!!!
We, Fabian, Wilson, Milo and I, took the earliest bus back...
the 1st thing i did was bath then sleep!!!! then go to work...zzz
This is the so called H3F, Happy 3 Friends!!!
please don't do this outside!!! POOR MEIYI~~~

2nd: Mei's Bonus Treat
Mei and Ching went to Raffles City to look for me to have a light gathering!
They waited me after work then we had our dinner at 10pm in Tea House!!!
Food Nice!!! Service also Nice!!! Price also Nice!!!
Mei treated us as she got her Bonus!!! nice rite!!! Muacks Mei!!!

3nd: Xmas eve wif Peggy and Xmas wif Fanny
This year, Uncle Santa still forgot me hence i didn't get a bf or even a Bear!!!
Had dinner wif Peggy, my best friend since High Sch...
Chit Chat awhile... Xmas day working also...
After working, Fanny and I had our Xmas dinner in Thai Express...
Food not bad, quite nice!!!
It is also a celebration as we get our 1st part of pay!!!

Though Uncle Santa forgot me, there are friends who always so sweet to me!!!
Thanks, Mei, Ching, Andy, Regine, Laopo and Ama for the Xmas Presents!!! Yeah!!!
And thanks my friends for the Xmas Greeting Too!!!

4th: Bye 2008 and Happy 2009
Had my last day of 2008 wif the ladies, Ching, Mei, Shan, Bei, Yunjia, Lyvia!
Xiang, u were absent!!!
Had our dinner in Lao Pa Sat!!!
And went to Boat Quay slack slack and admire ourselves with camera!!!
But we did not countdown as i had to work the next day...
thus in the end, we decided to use conference call to count down...
but failed due to the lousy network...
spent my last min of 2008 wif bei in MRT, sound so romantic man!!
Happy 2009!!!

5th: Meeting with my High School Gangs!!!
Meet with tienwei and yaoshen to watch The Day The Earth Stood Still...
Not as nice as expected...
but Keanu Reeves is handsome as usual!!!
I like him!!!

Meet with tienwei and weiding to watch the Bedtime Stories...
Quite nice!!! not bad!!! Comedy!!! I like Bugtsy!!!
After that, went to steamboat in Pandan, opposite Carrefour!!!!
Aigee, GuiGui, Qi Xuan, Weiding, Tien Wei and I!!!
Not bad though!!! Love to gather with them, fun and sweet!!!
New year must organize gathering and gambling again!! hehe!! yeah!!!

Lastly, I have my New Year Clothes Shopping wif .....*drum drum*
Ching and Mei again!!! bought alot and so happy now!!! yeah!!!

I got my FYP grade!! B+!!! Yeah!!
Thanks to my FYP team and Dr Alvin!!
I love them and thanks for knowing all of you guys,
hence i have a great experience and knowledge in FYP!!!
Thank you very much and i think we shall have a next outing!!!
No more Dim Sum but other Buffet ok?

Now ends my holiday...
and start my 3 weeks school...
then i am unofficially graduated!!!
And have my new year too~~~

New year resolution:
Stop being blur and forgetful!
*i broke it today* i forgot to set alarm to school!!!
Being more charming and ladies ya!

Long Updates from Momo...

2008-11-05T23:36:00.017+08:00

This Post will be SUPERB long,
If you are tired now, please read then tag then go to bed,
If you are not tired, please read then tag and tag and tag then go to bed too...
I will let my pictures to explain what i had over the month ya!

Halloween party in sch, organized by Club G

After the Halloween,
i really felt that i am not suitable for Clubbing that kind of environment...
I cant dance and feel abit uneasy...
but Club G did a nice job ya! Quite nice~~

Our 1st and ever council outing

Punctuality of our Council members is REALLY...
Went to Taka walked walked
then went to clarke, for 7.50 fish and chips!!!
nice!!! cheap!!! juz a bit far.... -.-|||
After that, tarot at boat quay there..
went to the cathay for movie, the coffin in the end...
BUT NOT NICE!!!
juz i like the seat and thks rek for lending me ur hands!!!
i made ur 8 bucks worth by providing 3D effect!

Swimming is my one of my flavour sports

Swimming with my chio besties, Mei and Ching, were really enjoyable,
we didnt really swim but chat and chat and slack!!!
Yeah!!! i like relax with you girls!!!

CampU&I
a 3D2N camp... was really fun and tiring!!!
I am seriously want to admit that i am OLD!!!

Laoda's bday,
Back to NUSS to have the buffet again!!!
I like NUSS buffet, superb nice!!!
thanks to laoda!!!
and besides rushing report, it gave me a small small break to relax!

After CampU&I, back to my FYP mood...
my days were just spent for report writing,
fyp meeting and studies! though the days were though,
it passed just like yesterday....
Weds was my FYP presentation,
overall we did quite well i think...

but i really feel se bu de!!!
I love my team! I love Dr Alvin!
Separate from you guys is kinda of weird...
love the days we in the lab,
try and try, fail and fail!
hope you guys enjoy the time wif me!

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Recently is abit down...
should be relieved from FYP,
yet i think i am having post FYP down syndrome...
Sorry to my council mate for not able to take any responsibility....
and sorry to fanny for need you to have more time to acc me...
and lastly, sorry to dear milo,
you have to take care of me and let me scold...
i know i am bad to u, i am sorry ok?
i will try my best to acc u and treat u better...
but u hv to sayang me more to make me recover...
P/s: u can try to treat me Paris Buffet!!!

Think over for some time,
i am not going to look for any bf now,
i cant acc him nor being the sweet sweet one...
perhaps, i shall be lonely my the rest of my life...
i have no courage to jump into anyone's life
or even let someone to jump into...
i think i am just a greedy girl
that need alot alot of love and sweetness from someone,
yet i am not able to give him this much,
hence in the end i will disappoint him...
thus, if there is such a good guy exist,
pls call my number 96702810,
else, shall juz let me to emo here bah...

Feeling very heavy on my shoulder,
feel so sian
feel so tired
feel so sad
feel so lonely
feel so moodless
feel so blind...
I need a direction, I need someone
yet i shall not get someone...

Here ends my emoness~~~
i will try to update more!!!

Finding Miss Ong Tien Yin

2008-10-13T15:27:00.003+08:00

Kinda of lost these days,

I have no mood to do my works,

no motivation to complete my mission,

and no feeling of having myself in this world, this space...

*i am not going to suicide*
thks gui for listen and share wif me!!!
my forever sister ya!

Back to RP, with a half Miss Ong,
as i have tried hard to understand and find myself during the weekends!!!
Meeting with my S3S2 gangs during the weekends!!!
Meeting with them is always giving me the sense of home and relax!
I can feel myself, i can talk abt my real self,
I will nv get hurt, i will nv been made used...
Chatting, Fighting, Laughing, Questioning (like reporters), Lame-ing,
Sharing our view will be forever non-stop during our meeting time!!!
I enjoyed the laughter, i enjoyed the fight,
I enjoyed the time with YOU ALL!!! I love you all my S3S2 gangs!!!

so ugly but this is Shun Shen who help me...thks bro

Now then i know why i feel so lonely all the time,
and that is the reason for myself to get a companion...
Thanks Shun Shen for helping me to find out!

And one day, was chatting with Derek,
He encourage with some words from Mr Rek,

"a couples come from difference, but tune to each other for perfection... "

Source: rEk 1988- Present

Quite true, but perhaps, i have not yet met my Mr Right who wish to tune with me

P/s: i am once again being accused by SOMEONE!! U better becareful for doing these, u will get ur retribution one!!!
U better pray hard or do more good deed!!!
If u dunno wat happen,
u can ask as u hv mouth,
u can email us as u hv laptop & fingers,
and i told u face to face & sms u on Mon, in the end how???
u still told me OK!!!
dun push the blame to us and be responsible abit can???

Long Updates....

2008-10-01T22:18:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aldifitri!!! Happy Children Day!!!
Time really flies and it is Oct and Malay New Year again...
Has been busy with Outing & celebration lately...
I shall not elaborate more and let the pictures speak the thousands words...

Lyvia Birthday + Ladies Night
The night was great!!!!
I love Lao Pa Sat,
I love the view at Clarke,
I love the Night we shared all our feeling...
and last, I love all of you!!!
xiang xiang pervet and bully my mookies!!!

**However, ever since i went to Lao Pa Sat,
My stomach started to feel bloated or pain,
and i just don't know why it is so painful...
hence i have skipped one day class due to my bloated stomach and made me awake for the whole night...
I think i am going to die soon...haha**

Had a trip to NTU last Weds,
I am officially 21 hence i can be a sureties!!!
Went to help Tienwei to sign the Tuition Grant,
and celebrated his Belated Birthday in Ah Kun n McCafe wif Beibei oh!!!
Happy Belated Birthday TienWei~~~
then rushed back to school for FYP...
due to i back late, i missed the feast treated by my PI, Dr Alvin!!!
SO WASTED!!!
Guowei, Yangwei and Jonatton said until so nice!!! **sobs**

Went to Dian Xiao Er wif Fanny on Thurs,
this was the 2nd time i went, and yet it is still as nice as last time...
I enjoyed the dinner with Fanny,
Enjoyed the chat, enjoyed the delicacies!!!
Fanny, you just let me feel so relax and comfortable!!!
Thanks Sis, you are always my listener~~~

Found out that i am having a tight budget recently...
I cannot spend too much on clothing and shopping anymore!!!
I am going to BROKE soon!!! Where has my MONEY gone???
I need finance consultant!!!

It was Friday Night again,
What we did???
Xiang, Chun Tian & I went to The Ark Cafe,
for??? supporting Ms Fanny!!!

The atmosphere there is very nice,
at that moment, i wish that i have a bf beside me and enjoy the song sung by Fanny and Shi Hao
really really nice and feeling so lonely...
After that, 3 of us decided to have a wild night,
hence we headed towards The Cathay and watched "Painted Skin"

3/5 stars it was a love story instead of a HORROR movie
(we tot it was before we watched)
i did not tear...
the movie showed how cruel the reality is,
guys are never sastified with one woman,
how can a husband not trust his wife???
how can a wife so devoted to her husband???
no doubt, in a relationship,
most of the time, guys always the one who have affair (mentally or physically)
however, i just cant help to feel sad for the wife,
and disappointed wif the husband...
Pls, give me a good one,
no need to be rich or smart,
but truthful, and nice...

Saturday was Jon & TianMing's bday celebration,
went to bugis walk walk & took NEOPRINT!!!

after our dinner (guo qiang mi xian),
guys headed to Sheng Siong,
girls headed to respective houses to collect their belongings...

gathered at 1001, celebration started around 11pm,
and they drank again!!!
i was forced to give face and drink 1 bottle of Breezer...
after some time for settling down, went back wif beibei & muar!!!
if stay overnight, i have no idea how drunk i will be!!!
Jon was drunk and started to say out his feeling towards xxx, and he cried!!!
I was like dunno how to help!!!
Just hope you and tianming have a happy bday!

Sunday was Amundsen outing,
but in the end, only Young, Leo, Colin & I turned out...
went to vivo city for Carl's & Junior??? the portion is so big!!!
went to Settler, a board game cafe, it is very nice!!!
i like there!!! it was so fun!!!
my maths is so good and i keep on win!!! haha!!!

Thanks for the Public Holiday,
went back my dearest Home!!!
I miss my parents and BEBE~~~

Glad tat they r fine and i really feel so relax in MSIA~~~
come back to sg today in the morning...
went out wif Fanny n Milo,
headed to Vivo City for "Mama Mia"
But bad timing, hence we had "Connected"

4.5/5 stars nice show!!!
watch it if you watched chinese movie!!!
the whole show is just so nice and there is no time for boreness i like the show!!!
How kind is Ku Tian Le!!!
I wish my husband will be as cute and kind as him...
He is a nice and handsome guy!!! I like him!!!

After the movie, walk walk in vivo city then we went for dinner!!!
Porridge in Chinatown!!!
Nice and the fried big intestine is nice!!!
Let the pictures tell you ok???

To Mei,
Thanks for reading if you are reading!!! don't say i didn't specially wrong sth for u hor!!! Thanks girl for acc me throughout the journey back to home!!! U're always my great listener, and I really MISS you & CHING!!!
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Now, here will be my personal corner...
i am who i am,
who will be emo, happy, sad, excited,
who will like, dislike, love, hate,
who will be fierce, kind, nice, bad,
who will be serious, playful...
that is me, if you are not able to accept who i am,
i am very sorry but i can't change because of you...
i am someone who easily to get happy,
at the same time easily to get emo...

i think a lot,
i am serious as i have my responsibility.
i have my roles to play,
i have my responsibility to complete,
i will be playful when i can,
i will be relax when i with someone can let me feel so,
i am just as simple as a white paper,
what i want, what i feel just show at my face,
what i say, i mean it...
what i did, i will just say out without hiding...
sorry for being so honest,
as i cant stand secret and i cant help with my curiosity to know other secret!!!

i just wish that i have a very clear ans for myself,
but i dun hv...
i wish that i can be less selfish,
i wish that i can think less,
i wish that i can giving more trust,
i wish that i can be more open-minded,
i wish that i can be nicer,
i wish that i wish that...

Sorry, i asked for too much,
sorry, i expected too much,
perhaps, here shall end my emoness and selfishness,
back to my reality,
waiting for my summer &
waiting for my nice guy who understand my real me...
mookies is waiting wif me~~~
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I am coming Mama Mia!!!
Fanny & I are not going to miss it this time!!!

Bad Day + Lucky Day

2008-09-18T23:45:00.003+08:00

Today was quite bad mood!!!
Ytd was hot until i couldn't fall aslp!!!
and Today class was again PLANT TISSUE CULTURE!!!
really bad mood!!!
Can you guys please stop asking others to do all those saikang???
and you ownself playing game, talking cock, making fun of ppl???
I am so tired lo!!! Pekcek!!!
In the end, i think i will get a B again as i did the content page,
BUT i took the leftover which no one want for my presentation!!!

Supposed to work today but i am seriously no mood to work!!!
Very Very pekcek lo!!! Sorry shan, promise u to replace u but...
In the end, due to sudden help from our advisor, Bee Geok,

we (@men, rek, wenhao, jonathan & I) went to Queensway Shopping Centre to collect our T shirt!!!
Thanks Bee Geok, you are so nice!!! (she gave us a free ride)
Our RP SC EXCO T shirt is done!!! So nice!!! So exciting!!!

Went to have our dinner, KFC!!!
laugh all the way!!! i just cant help to laugh!!!
Wenhao n @men really bad, keep on remind Jonathan for the 4 months thing!!!
Derek & I juz cant help but LAUGH!!!
After that, took bus back to Woodlands wif Rek...
he is so nice that he actually can take bus from Queensway back to Sengkang
but he acc me back to Woodlands and took 161 back!!
THANKS REKREK!!!
We had a nice chat and we shall continue again ya!
Is my turn to acc u back to Sengkang then!!!

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End of the day,
Feeling better after hanging out wif the guys!!!
and having a good chat wif Rek!
Thanks all of u!!! Give u all a big hug!!! *huggies*

Happy Birthday Maro!!!

2008-09-17T21:37:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Maro-chan aka Jinyin aka Xiaosheng,

ytd went to Ding Tai Feng to eat!!!
the xiao long bao really nice lo!!! yeah!!!
but i got control myself hor, size cant be bigger anymore!!!

went to Balcony to have a drink,
the atmosphere and drink are so nice!!! i drank 3 cups, 2 rum, 1 cocktails...
we were alright when we sat at the sofa!!!
BUT i started to feel dizzy and see stars when we started to move!!!
And joyce and I chiong to toilet...
i pee, i sweat like hell, and my eyes cant open at all!!!
and stomachache... after sometime...
i VOMITTED all my DING TAI FENG!!! so sad!!!
conclusion is I was drunk~~~
hence i sit at the floor and lean on the wall...
cant help myself from standing up not even can sit on the toilet bowl lo!!!
THKS JOYCE!!! I LOVE U GIRL!!!

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in the end thks maro for sharing the cab wif me...

thks zhihui and zoee for helping me during the vomit time..
thks joyce for acc me all the time.. i like ur shoulder!!!!
in the end i wasted the money for the drink and DING TAI FENG!!!
But overall i love our gathering!!! and our NEOPRINT!!

P/s: There are so many JONATHAN + JONATTON around me ya!!!!

Mid Autumn Festival + Meet The Principal!!!

2008-09-15T22:18:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!!

Went to SWIM wif Xiang Xiang!!!

I LOVE WATER!!!

IS SO COOLING AND SHIOK!!!

I LOVE IT!!! Let's go again ok???

me n Xiang Xiang!!! Swim Swim~~~

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Went to ISC Mid Autumn Festival,

though all the way was in chinese which i dont think is appropriate

as INTERNATIONAL student club organized it!

BUT is fun, cos i got 2 prizes (which are Orea and Oreas)

I was hoping i can get the lucky draw big prize lo!!!

Hampers!!!

Long time nv meet wif my buddies and sisters!!!

we r the 4 pretties!!!

obviously, they r prettier~~ I STARS
they r so nice and usual though keep on bully me lah!!!

I was being asked to use my butts to dance 10 sec for all the audience

and use my face to carry the orange to other side with a GUY!!!

I CANT GET A BF ALRDY LA!!!

Face all threw alrdy and got 2 bar of OREAS back!!!

Overall was fun and we took many pictures...

me,xiang and jon...

me n fanny~~~(we r not lesbian!); Dennis and Fanny

Next year, where i will pass my Mid Autumn, who i will pass my Mid Autumn?

emo-ing again..................................................................

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today having a "MEET THE PRINCIPAL" session with SC EXCO!!!

So nervous lo... everyone is like so quiet and formal today...
so scary!!! bad @men throw the ball to me!!!

As i am WELFARE OFFICER!!!
sweat!!! tears!!! i will rmb u @MEN!!!
After that having welfare dept meeting...

taking wenhao and my N80,

Can guess out which one is mine??? which one is dummy one???

Winner of guessing my correct phone can get my flying kiss!!!

not so soon, i will change back to my sony bah...

else he keep on nag that i am carrying the couple hp wif him!!!

is u carry not me hor, i bought it 1st!!! LOLX

wenhap's sleeping buddha posture!!!

vanan!!! Wenhao is slacking!!!

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today having monday blue...feeling so tired...

slacking & playing mood was activated hence slack lo!!!

sori Vanan~~~~but i will do my part de!!!

recently listen to Jason Mraz and Fish Leong,

feeling so want to in love yet i feel so insecure and upset...

without a goal hence will be like that???

I am a girl without an actual goal now...

emo-ing...

IS GUESSING TIME!!!

Whose FEET ARE THERE??? winner can get my flying saliva!!

Whose Roses Are there??? Given by who to who? (winner will get my kiss oh!!!)

hi bloggy...

2008-09-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

My last sem (hopefully i wont retain lah) in RP has started...
3 days a week is great, more time to rest and yet it cultivate my laziness!!!
So sian...So lazy...AND I AM SO FAT NOW!!!
Exercise!!! Anyone free to exercise with me???

Having 3 different classes, same class with some friends,
BUT, there is no FANNY & MILO!!!
My dear Malaysian Gathering is gone~~~
*SoB* I miss YOU 2 lah!!! Very Very Much!!!

Jon told me that I am happier in SC compared with ISC...
For me, sometimes i feel yes, sometimes feel no too...
Being very selfish, ISC will not let me feel alone,
will not let me have a little time to settle down...
Accumulation of tireness and responsibility, make me strong yet make me sick of the life
I wish there is someone for me to count on as well...

In SC, happier as i am no longer the one everyone look at,
i am no longer the one everyone spam email to,
hence my shoulder no longer pain like last year...
no longer having insomnia like last time...
Most of them are very friendly and nice,
but i feel lonely often, i feel don't know what to say, don't know what to do...
everyone has their own life, and yet mine already gone...
i don't know where i belong actually...
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Here are some funny Updates:

1. Union Camp Planning Started...
And it don't know why, somehow, all others bad habits came out!!!
Since here is my blog, i shall emphasize!!!
I HATE BOOT LICKER!!!
go where also can see boot licker one lo!!!
I HATE BOOT LICKER esp those do nth but BOOT LICK one!!!
and i shall emphasize,
I HATE HYPOCRITE too!!!
do nth but play tai chi and talk onli one!!!
Due to some of us don't like them and yet we wish to dinner tgt...
we shake them of by those very very lame reason!!!
Like Val's "want to vomit, very sick"
Like Mine "cannot eat alrdy, need to go somewhere else"
And thks Jonathan's help (ba dao xiang zu),
me, derek, jonathan who stay in different area shared cab go "home" leh!!!

2. i got 10 bruises and 5 injuries...
First of all, i have no ideas where my bruises come one ah???
i everyday knock here and there!!!
and even one day knock the table until swollen, and cant wear shoes!!!
Injuries, I have no ideas too... i juz kno my hands quite cooperate with my brain,
when feel itchy then scratch, then like that...
should cut off my brain or hands ya???

3. tmr is Mid Autumn Festival
Mid Autumn Festival is another festival/day for family to reunion...
and today is my MUMMY's bday!!!
Went to Redhill Pasar to eat, nice food!!!
tmr will not be wif daddy and mummy, abit...
but i will celebrate wif ISC them ya!!!
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Jiayou momo!!!
Jiayou moshi!!!
Jiayou ong tien yin!!!
Happy always and slim down soon ya!!!

End of Holidays~~~

2008-09-03T19:07:00.002+08:00

Today will be RP official school day...
But today is Day 8, hence i have no class...
Purposely went back to sch to work BUT in the end,
AUNTY WINNIE asked me to go back as i wore sandals!!!
So sian... ruin my plan of the day...

Monday went out with Anyhow Haha Family + Joey (our new neighbor)
Daddy bo is going back to china before he goes to Australia,
Thus, this will be the last gathering for Anyhow Haha Family this year!
We are going to miss you!!!
Thanks for the dinner and Vietnam dress ya!!!
Seriously, feeling a bit sad for letting you go...
you r really a nice friend and nice daddy ya!!!

Tuesday went back to Msia...
Attachment: @men, Jelisa, Cheryl
Went to Jusco Tebrau City for shopping...
Jusco is a big place but maybe it is not a good shopping place for them???
i think they still prefer City Square...
Next time we go there ya!!
And we go Arcade again ok??? haha!!!

This Sem will be my last sem in RP,
How do i feel?
Actually i dun really get used to my life now...
Too slack???
I am really get used to those busy life,
now become so blank, i am seriously cannot take it and i feel so empty and lonely...
my heart is so blank now!!!
I dun kno wat to do, wat i feel...
I juz feel i cant let myself to be quiet for a single moment
once i quiet down, i started to think alot...

Chatting with Fanny juz now,
And reflect back to my y1 and y2 life...
Remind me of Alvin and Eric,
They are the 2 guys that teach/educate me to be more aware of guys!!
Dont trust guys easily!!! Just that i dont trust them anymore!!!
I seriously cant forget the stupid stuff they did to me,
and million thks for giving me those bad experiences!!!

Trusting someone totally is very hard for me,
as i have really had enough of those betray, cheat, hurt...
Hence getting in Relationship might be really difficult though i want to,
who can i trust? I dun kno...
Someone like u might not be someone u like,
someone u like might not be someone like u,
life is just a full circle, hence life is wonderful...
it will let it repeat and repeat,
when will it be someone u like = someone like u???
i have no ans, as i dun hv both...
I wish i have either one to fill up my life,
but it cant be forced and it cant be done purposely...
Just hope it come faster bah,
else i afraid i will be rotten soon...lolx

End for today...

Outing...

2008-08-29T21:17:00.004+08:00

I am seriously need to go out!!!
I cant stay in Singapore's room for whole day,
else i will definitely sick, sick of life...lolx

hence Weds, i die die also wan to go and accompany Mr Dummy to Acer!!!

acer service counter 1&2
Went to acer and realized that their counters are more than FUTJISU lo!!!
No wonder FUTJISU so slow~~~
Along the way, Wenhao was sharing with me about the Police Rank,
join Police force with diploma and degree will make a big difference!!!
Hope he can achieve wat he wan and BUY the house for me hor!!! *evil grin*

Random shot on Wenhao's bag
(there is umbrella, cable, goat milk & choco panda from me ya!)

I know i shall not compare my life with others,
however, every time i see Wenhao so busy,
I will feel that what i am doing here!!!
Maybe juz like wat he said, sometimes is very tiring one,
but in the end, his life is filled with many stuff, i mean contented!
Compare to mine, i am seriously wondering...
But he is a very nice and caring guy!
He is very cheerful and straightforward!!!
Every time he will juz care abt us 1st instead of himself,
and he every time make me burst out loud!!!
He is a very hardworking and good ppl oh!!!
Shall not share more, later he tot i secret admire him...
He called himself "ladies killer" swt-_-|||
But i call him dummy cos he everytime calls me silly... *cry*

Dummy's back view~~~ (secret shot)

Just back from Amundsen Outing!!!
All people attend except aidi (unreachable) & @men (in Genting)!!!
Went to East Coast Park to skate/blade...

1st time skating,
and it was a PAINFUL experience...
I fell 3 times heavily and at the 3rd time,
I was seriously not able to stand up and i pain until tears~~~
Thks everyone for keep helping me and comforting me!!!
and thks Sherry for keep on helping me all the time!!!
Jess, ur spirit best lah!! I will learn from u, fall down so many times still try!!!
I will try again one!! Never give up!!!
but have to wait until i recover lah...
my status:
back and butts very pain,
cant walk, stand, sit properly, even sneeze also pain!!!
one word to describe my feeling, ALAMAK!!!

while they were skating, i pain until i sat aside and enjoyed the sea view~~~

And when i took train back to Woodlands,
2 stupid INDO uncles speaking INDO and insulting me not giving my seat to them!!!
SO BAD!!! never expected i kno how to listen INDO rite???
haiz, uncle u r fit enough to stand lo, give me a break can???
though i am not pregnant, but now i kno how pregnant lady feel le!!!
Back pain, butt pain, walk cannot be step, somemore walk open open!!!
So CHAM!!!!!!

Empty Shell...

2008-08-27T14:02:00.005+08:00

Girls are always emotional!!!
Their mood is like weather...
For me, i totally agree!!!

Monday,
i was damm high!!!
though i slept around 2am by having a Long Chat wif Dummy~~~
and i woke up at 8:30am for my FYP!!!
I got RESULT!!! So shiok!!!
yeah!!
Credits to my DEAR FYP TEAM + Dr Alvin!!!

Dunno y, i was down start from ytd (tues)
So sian...
Find that i have no focus in my life...
I have lost my focus or centre of my life!
Study? Uni? FYP? GPA? Council? Love? Friends? Family? Money?
No ideas at all...
No momentum for everything!
As usual, centre or focus of my life will motivate me and fight for it!!!
But now, really empty!!!
I felt so empty and lonely...

Oo told me "you should get a bf now"...
Swt~~~i have no idea at all...
What is love?
What is feeling?
But very true that i need a pillar, a focus, a centre for my life at least now!!!
I juz feel that my heart cant afford to have any hurt and injury,
hence i abit tired and moodless now~~~
Hello!!
Someone, something open my heart pls!!!

Last week, was listening FM wif my mum in the car,
nowadays, china parents will print out their children porfolio and laminate it,
then put at the garden like selling 2nd hand goods that kind,
if got interest then can have a blind date...
I was telling my mum,
last time blind date then love of freedom then back to blind date again!!!
And thks for my mum's curse since i was young,
i think i will need it!!!
Mum, ur daughter need a blind date now!!
cos 21 already,
single, ugly, tomboy, not caring, not gentle,
no diploma, no skilled, watever also dun hv leh!!
Money also dun hv, juz kno how to eat!!!!

Btw~~~
ytd, Val and I stayed back in SC room and we partially revamp the room!!!
YEAH!! We r rocks!!
luckily sch dun hv many ppl!!!
else we 2 girls kena misunderstood stealing tables like that!!!
here are some pictures of our proud art pieces!!!

this is called a conference room~~~

Tidy Admin room~~~

Credit to Mr @men and Derek for making a store room so neat!!!

Val made the new tag~~
"Rubbish and Junk are different" said by Val!!! lolx!

So pictures with Anyhow Haha Family
-Just left me in RP,
-daddy bo go to Aussie soon,
-ching and yessa in SMU,
-how come the mummy like retain ah??? still stuck in RP!!!
yuki yaki~~~ i am the best ice cream maker!!! yeah!!!

daddy's ice cream so gaowei!!!

u see, stilll act cute!!!

Dun force yessa to eat le lah!!

sori, i am the excited one, ching is the cool one~~~

yoyo rap rap~~~

i feel so young, when i see this pic!! i am 16!!!

Updates!!!

2008-08-22T22:57:00.004+08:00

12th of Aug, last day of class...
Our faci, Jeremy is so nice!
He is the 1st faci that bring camera to class and ask us to take pic!
And even wan to put our face in facebook!!! So nice!!!
In Rp, get used to the life of changing class in every sem...
kinda of numb, hence i also dun kno wat i felt actually...haha

E56J

so here come my Sem Break Vacation~~~
to me Vacation = normal school day...
Went back to sch for FYP everyday
having messy feeling everyday!
I like my FYP team and my team mates, Dr Alvin as well...
but is quite tiring to go back everyday la!!!
never mind, muz work harder so kno more and learn more!!!

Ilung, my dear friend...
went back to indo last week and goin to study in aussie!!!
so jealous...hving mixture feeling when he left...
is so sad that seeing someone so important leave me......
he is really nice and sweet guy...
hope he will stay happy and healthy at there ya!!!
Wish u all the best!!!

Juz back from 3D2N camp,
it is really a memorable camp for me!!!
Our team, Amendsen, ROCKS man!!!
we come from different clubs yet we worked very well,
and the most important thing is that we have superb good bonding!!!
I am so happy to be in this team and knowing all of them!!!
Ching, Colin, Leonard, @men, Jess, Sha, Aidi, Youngly, Nick, Alvin and Vanan, We r Amendsen-an!!!
Everyone is juz so nice and sweet to each other!!!
I hope that we can keep in touch always ya!!

Amendsen's guys and girls!!!

1st day will be the ALC...
partner wif ching (her name is Jean Ho, not my dear ex president chingching hor)
same wif ching ching, ching everytime helped me alot & went through the high rope course tgt!!!
our friendship built from this hardship!!!
Jess who is always so caring n hyper,
she is always the one will give us fun n sounds,
else i will emo de lo...haha
Leonard who promise to buy us shark fins after the ALC...
and he used his story telling skill to distract @men to pass through the high rope course!!
Colin who is always so brave to chiong and steady one!
He is the strongest man in our camp carry so heavy stuff...
@men who is my dear president, funny and always so random...
He is the mosquitoes free man lo.. cos he bring the mosquitoes coil wif him all the time in ubin!!!
Vanan, my welfare assistant!!
he is a brave and map king lo!! haha
Nick who is very funny but helpful and always so random one!
Sha who is very smart and homesick always ya!
Jun and Young, they are always the next expected one, cos they look normal but inside is very fun one!! haha!!

Amendsen formal shots and funky shots

beside 5 KP models, i have also learnt how to kayak!!!
It is so fun and relaxing!!
@men who is my cute and funny and nice president,
is very pro and nice...without u, i think my kayak sure capsize or sink...
thks for keep helping me during the camp!!!
momo support u always!!!
partner wif wenhao is so fun too!!!
we were so relax and chit chat and see my cloud there!!!
and dun kno y keep kayak to the police station and private housing...
somemore nearly bang the ship lo...
but is really enjoyable!! rmb hor, wenhao said he wan to buy the house for me!!!
haha!!!
P/S: chingching, thks for ur SPF 130 sunblock, hence i am still stay white!!!

bside that, UBIN mosquitoes are terrible!!!
the mosquitoes are always so hungry and keep on sucking our blood!!!
make me so itchy!!!
Worst thing is i hving menses during the camp!!!
then still suck my blood...so black hearted one!!!
but throughout the camp, sad thing is nv team wif wenhao, derek...
cos i juz feel that they looks unhappy wif sth...
and yet i was not team wif them and not able to help them...
abit sad!!! momo let u 2 shake lo!!! *cry...

Sun Tanned Wenhao and Derek

they r the 4 buddies in council!! they r my important ones!
though hv fun in camp...
i skipped my fyp for 3 days...
hence today was so blur n dun kno wat to do!
thks my team!!! guowei, yangwei, suyanto and johnny!!
u all r the best!!!

and also hv to thk chingching for borrowing me all the camp stuff!!!
realli very very helpful!!! luv u always!!!
thks Jean and Weihong, our instructors during camp
we love u too~~ Amundsen rocks!!!

P/s: this snack is really nice!!! is WITH CHEESE!!!

21st Birthday + Outing...

2008-08-08T20:46:00.010+08:00

Finally my 21st Summer has come, and i am 21 yr old now...
so i can be one's guardian, help them sign the consent form now...
(this is the only benefit for 21 and above i think)
Besides that, thanks for everyone that has greeted me "Happy Birthday",
No matter in advance, on time, or late.... In friendster, facebook, phone call, sms, msn, personally, email & etc.
I am deeply appreciate and feeling grateful that you all still remember my Special Day!!!
Thanks all of you & I love U all!!! Yeah!!!

It is the 1st time i didn't celebrate with my parents,
as i felt that 21 yr old, means i am an adult
and i have to be independent no matter how i miss them!!!
or how much homesickness i have!!!
Thanks Mei and Ching for accompany me on my Big Day, Cheer my days, laughter, sweat, singing, eating & even shouting!!!
And they are the most HAPPIEST PERSONS for my 21 yr old...
They are so evil that welcoming to their 21 club...-_-|||

Started from Last Thurs,
Was the last day of having Matthew's class though was just Problem 15,
He is probably in Batam helping to build houses for the needy now hence Problem 16 class was facilitated by another lady faci...
Matthew's class is fun everytime, though what he asked us to do is very lame,
yet it actually cheer up the air, everyone become lively and class become funny!!!
We took many many pics...haha..*shy*
We came from Foon Yew, Malaysia Boleh!!!

We r named as Malaysia Gangsters and we have our Malaysia Gathering Always oh!!!

Singing Queen and King & momo~~~

W56A, a class full with girls!! ROX!!!
My lesbian GF, Fanny...
Audrey dun slp alrdy!!! take pic leh~~~

Went out wif ama...*shhhh*
Meet and Eat (of course, our favourite) in AMK,
the food is nice!!! and then due to long time nv meet, thus i insist on watching movie tgt!!!
We watched X-files, not really nice,
but juz now the show ended at 12am and it bcomes the 1st day of ghost month...
ama's eyes are bigger one, but due to the flashlight so like this, not affected by me hor!!!

Last Friday,
Supposed to go to ISC MC SOP Workshop,
due to some miscommunication, and i was very tired,
hence i went home and nap, then missed out the bday celebration prepared by them
so sorry...
After woke up, i juz straightaway went to Suntec City to find Mei...
As we would have our NUSS BBQ Buffet there!!!

Very NICE!!! Mei said it is the 1st time that she ever seen this much i have eaten...
And due to thirsty, bought Yakult from Carefour,
and in the end it somehow make us become the spokepersons of Yakult...
Having us, they definitely earn money one lo!!!
Our smile represent how good is the Yakult!!!

Last Saturday,
Meet with Daddy Bo at the noon,
Went to Swensen again...
So long nv seen him, he was going back to China soon..
Dunno how many years again i can see him...
Thanks Daddy for the birthday gift and treat!!!
After that, rushed down to orchard meet with Mei,
she intended to buy a pair of shoes, but in the end the price and the materials does not match ya!
After some shopping, we took bus and heading to NIGHT SAFARI and Ching was there to meet us lo!!! yeah!!!

see!!! wat these 2 girls pointing!!!
Reached Night Safari, the 1st thing we did was toilet break,
after that supposed to buy tickets but these 2 chabo insisted on buying BEN & JERRY!!!
then went to buy ticket, i gotten voucher from Mag,
hence there is 50% discount!!!
*We didnt chase by animals at all!!!*
but some of the animals were sleeping, cant even really see clearly lo!!!
but the experience was nice!!! fruitful experience!!!
i found my ex bf there!!! pls dun be racist ya!
Proof to Night Safari not Zoo...

Sunday,
went out wif Joyce and Maro...
went to Sun and Moon had our lunch!!!
I like the atmosphere and the food as well!!! Nice nice!!!

Went to NYDC Heeren, to visit Joyce's bf, zhihui
and of cos i want to eat the MUDPIES there lah~~~
Mudpies there is the best lo!!! i cant resist it at all!!!
Chit chatting and sth very shocked lo!!! haha... congrat maro!!! haha!!!
At evening, meet with Jeksen, as it was his bday!!!
i am 2nd aug and he is 3rd of aug!!!
Went to Swensen and had a nice chat...haha
jeksen act cute!!!

Monday,
had a belated celebration with ISC MC,
thks for the orea cheese cake by Jolin, and the song & wishes from all of u!!!

Weds,
Watched The Mummy wif Wilson, was not really nice...
He bought me a Webcam!!! so nice, so i hv to teach my dad to use internet alrdy!!
So he can webcam wif me liao!!!!
But was very sorry to Wilson,
as i was having alot of matters in my heart and brain,
when everyone talked to me,
i hv to react long time and might not really be that excited or even understand..
haiz...

After that, went to Toa Payoh wif Xiang...
Thanks Yunjia for making a meal for me!!!
It is perfectly nice and healthy!!
And nutritious, so long i have not been drinking homecooking soup...

Thursday went out wif W56A,
Audrey, Giena, Weileng, Milo and Dearest Fanny...haha
Went to play badminton and tennis, (but i juz played badminton)
and now whole body muscle ache...
it was really fun!
RP JUMP!!!
Police!! got ppl nv wear clothes!!!
Went to Orchard for our lunch!!!
Nice korean restaurant, nice food, nice service!!!
Very happy and we all were sharing our FYP experience there!!
I love the outing!! We muz go out again ya!!!!

Today is 080808,
Beijing Olympics, tmr will be Singapore National Day!
Talk to Dr Alvin abt our FYP team today..
was so nervous..
then back to class and rushed my ppt...
took some pictures after class...

Wenhao asked me why i dont go home,
i dont like to go home early,
cos the home is not my real home...
that i dun feel any warmness...
but i do like to walk wif u guys cos even i am quiet,
you guys are too funny and let me keep on laughing!!! haha!!
I am having homesickness now,
i miss my real home that wif my parents and bebe!!!
I juz simply dun wan to come back to this room i am staying now,
and i juz wish that my real home is here!

Back to Happiness State...

2008-07-30T23:07:00.009+08:00

Today was a happy day,
finally i have thought through and found out what actually i should do...
Thks for the email that awake me from the emo-ness,
I forgot my smile,
my bright smile that can make my days brighter and make my friends' as well...
I should smile more, and be happy...
hence, i will be able to by my friends' side when they need me...
i will be able to listen and understand them...
thanks Wilson for specially gave me a call, sorry i cried hence i couldn't chat with u...

Today went to school as usual though no FYP,
only school can give me the feeling of studying, working!
Hence, after chat with Fanny over the phone to talk abt her #$%@ FYP teammates,
went to shower and met Fanny for lunch,
the lunch was not as expected that nice due to her teammate gave us a SIAN kind of atmosphere....
1st time, i had this kind of feeling leh...(so sori)
After that, went to Student Council Room...
It has become my 2nd home alrdy i feel,
everyday stay there, laugh, chat, watching ppl (i kno is abit pervert), study, work, eat, drink, etc...
I like there... juz dun kno y lo...*shy*
Thank Student Council Room for giving me a space...

inside got alot of stuff lo!!

I was sitting alone at Student Council Room this afternoon,
and forgot that i should actually do my primer design and genomic UT revision...
then i ebay-ing, chatting wif Fanny in MSN..
was getting colder and colder, thanks Derek for coming after his class
HE ENDED HIS CLASS AT 2:30pm!!! WHEN SAS can like this??? *sobs*
Chit Chatting....warmer lo...at least got ppl... but i still like the place...haha

After that went to CWP wif fanny...
I BOUGHT MANY THINGS!!
hair bands, shirt, bebe's food, sleeping bag, necklace...so HAPPY~~
i should find more time to shop and buy my pants, skirts, shorts, pants!!!

haha...I am shopaholic!

the funny thing is we kena misunderstood as LESBIAN!!!
do we look like that?????? i dun hv bf also not like this treat me lo!!!
anyway, was sweet and happy... thks fanny~~~ muz go again!!!

Back to RP to collect my stuff,
and Derek, Edmund, Wenhao they all went running again!!!
Salute their spirit!!! Sorry, u ask me run, then juz let me die lo...haha
And due to my dumbness, i forgot to buy my MASKs!!!
Went to CWP again...luckily got discount...
start to grow wrinkle alrdy, hv to do more protection...
i dun wan to bcome without make up dun dare to go out those kind of girl!!!

Is time for me to get back my long hair,
hence i will be more girlish,
and i will not be misunderstood again!!!
I kno i TOMBOY, but I AM STRAIGHT!!
I LIKE GUYS one lo...sobs...
haha~~~ happy days.....

i am having hormone imbalance

2008-07-29T23:40:00.002+08:00

Perhaps i am having hormone imbalance for these days,
hence the chances of coming here will be increased and increased.
Is due to aging then tend to think more and feel unhappier?
I have no ideas...

I am seriously quite angry and sad today...
angry due to the words said out by U,
sad due to the words that hurt my partner,
maybe i still have that little of girl's sensitivity, hence i feel it...
and i hate it...
Meeting has become lesser and lesser people, y?
I have no ideas again...busy and packed with other stuffs, maybe.

Sorry for scaring you all for being so fierce today,
and sorry for mentioning quiting for today as well....
You all really are my border line...
I am not a easily give up person,
but i am seriously, cant afford the feeling of being helpless
and seeing this to happen again and again...
what do U mean by "you should know only you should know, others doesnt matter"
Seeing my important ones being hurt is more than hurting me...
what shall i do?
"quiting" come in my mind these days...
You all really are my border line...
you all are the reasons that i am staying here...
i am seriously pissed,
though is not the 1st time, yet it is the 1st time in council...

Recalled back,
the 1st time, i was pissed and using that scary face in ISC was during ISC leadership camp,
my team were exhausted and everyone of us were working so hard,
yet in the end, someone was blocking and blocking and blocking us for reaching the end...
I was pissed and argue with him,
I rmb how my teammates comforted me for no need to worry on them,
If i weren't feel angry or sad if there was only ME...
but as a leader, i were really cant help myself from heartpain on all my teammates!
I juz couldnt help myself from getting agitated when i think it is unfair to my teammates!

the 2nd time, the scary face appeared to the same person again,
however, it was a private session that he was making use the people around me to play wif politics
i told him that if he wanted to sit on my seat, he could have it at that time,
but dont ever try to hurt the one around me, i juz cant afford others got hurt.

how many times i ever showed that face...
how i wish that i wont show it as it proves that no one around me got hurt!
I am juz having hormone imbalance now, perhaps,
hence i will be having this all bad feeling...
bad decision, bad words, bad attitudes...
how could i stop others getting hurt and brighten their days...
or it means that i shall not exist hence i would not be seeing them got hurt.

21st birthday is important and special to me,
i have passed through quite alots and grow up alots...
i am sori for not accept you guys invitations,
i juz dun feel comfortable wif a huge grp of ppl and in the end i have to take care of everyone and settle the "after celebration cleaning"
i really wish that my birthday could be a special one,
special de happy
special de enjoy
special de meaning
special that i feel fruitful, interesting, relax, happy sincerely, unforgettable!!!
hence in the end, i reject it...
I can have it alone and go to somewhere, east coast, zoo, sentosa.....
I can have it alone at home...
I can have it alone and play with some stupid games,
but i am sori, i juz feel that i dun wish to exert any pressure or obligation or duty for my 21st birthday, my special birthday....
I can have it with myself, with someone, with some friends,
with those they i can freely be a girl, be a silly, be a younger sister, be a follower, be happy.....

my eyes become swollen and panda,
as i can only sleep after tears dropping finished
and cannot really make up my mind...

i dun kno y...

2008-07-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

My weekends were kinda of relax plus scary....
I went to dentist to filled up the lobang of my teeth!!! FINALLY!!!
It was a really scary experience, i shall not recall on that again!
And also, I went to cut my hair~~~
I cut short my hair, and let it back to my High Sch Style...
As i juz wish to cut down all the unhappiness,
and welcome my birthday happily......
No matter i look girlish or boylish, i am still Moshi ok???
Please remember to say Hi and Bye to me!!!
*i am sorry until now, still dont have courage to take my short hair pic....

Finally, Student Forum organized by Student Council ended...
What is my feeling on that?
Actually i juz don't feel great or good, something wrongs there and something missing there...
I am juz feeling down,
I am juz feeling weird,
I dont feel happy at all...
But i thought i shld be happy after i cut my unhappiness away?
I juz feel like crying...feeling kinda of lost...
Really dont kno y...
Just simply cant get the answer...

*thanks Wenhao, Derek, @men, JunHong, Chris, Vanan, Bee Geok, Sean and etc for helping in the event...
*thanks for supporting the event as well!!!

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Perhaps today is my bad day...
like usual, everytime before my birthday...
it will be like this, sian, emo, unlucky...
Sometimes, juz cant help to hate myself from being who I am now...
juz hate myself for not being a normal lady?
for being a girl that don't dare to trust ppl, don't dare to rely on ppl...
I juz don't dare to open myself again...
I juz cant change the fact that when people are so nice to me,
but i dun dare to open myself, i am not able to overcome the fear...
who will be always by my side no matter i in wat situation?
besides mum, dad, bebe...
who will be my side when i need someone here?
i have no reasons for being not happy...yet i dun hv reasons for being happy...
perhaps...homesick again...

thks for asking me out for my birthday,
however, i am really sorry...
i juz feel that i would really like this yr bday being special...
I would rather u all dun care abt me or throw me with a guy
i would rather u all surprise me or prank me,
instead of juz date me out for dinner, lunch, or even karaoke...
Appreciate for the sincerity...
but i am sorry...i juz dun wish to....
I am seriously no ideas wat happen to myself from letting my tears dropping...
I am juz simple no ideas what goes wrong to me...

Back to Normal Life?

2008-07-24T23:46:00.004+08:00

Today was a cool day...
I think i will update here more frequently,
since my busy periods is ended *evil grin*

People is always contradict ourself one rite?
When busy complaint busy, when now free dunno do wat leh!!!
Seeing everyone around is so busy, being helpless and slacking here,
I feel quite useless...
Wat i can do is, offering help and watching them lo...
Being aside provide happiness, concern, encouragement is only thing i can think of...
Daddy, u shld feed me more pig brain last time,
hence now i can think out more ways mah!

After sch today,
dunno y, SC room have so many ppl today,
long time nv see big crown in SC room alrdy...
was kinda of happy??? haha
I like to watch them (am i a pervert?)
Watch their behaviors? Cos you guys are really funny!!!
Cant stop laughing!!!
they were playing games lo!!!

Thanks for cheering up my life everytime!
There was an umbrella found by dummy, Wenhao...
is so cute!!! Looney tunes!! got Bugs and Tweety!!!

due to camera shy, they hid behind???

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Nearly forgot to update the movie we watched ytd!!!
THE DARK KNIGHT!!!
IS SUPERB NICE!!!

I am sad that the uncle joker was dead after the movie finished shot...
He acted very very very very well in the show!!!
I will really give him 10 marks!!!
I feel that Batman is really kinda of lonely and sad...
no one understand him and no one really trust him beside uncle Alfred...
he is too rich but yet lonely, empty...
I wish that i can share my happiness wif him... create home wif him lah...*shy*
Havey Dant from a hero become a bad guy...
wat change him, wat drive him to the limit...
one word-luv....

Our world cant live without LOVE...
might be friendship, relationship, kinship, etc...
but cant escape from love...
without love, people tends to be empty,selfish, pathetic...
hence, i would really hope to be a housewife lah! or a good mother!!!
Giving my children sufficient of luv and care...
this is wat they need most...money is needed but LOVE IS more important than that...
Thanks Daddy and Mummy...
Thanks bebe as well!! Jiejie miss u so much!!!

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Back today again,
actually something shocked happen...
even until now, i cant even digest it or sort it out clearly...
seriously, are you saying what you wan to say or just joking?
But anyway, i will think clearly and give u an answer...
Please give me some time to think and understand u...
I dont wish to hurt anyone, as i would juz wan to share my happiness wif all of u!
Thanks fanny~~~ luv u always!!!

Anyway, my 21st summer is coming...
my age is bcome more and more sensitive alrdy ya!!!
I wish that i have a more special birthday this yr...
since is 21!!!
I wish to go those place that i nv went b4!!!
Night Safari? Botanic Garden? Any suggestion?
Besides that, due to Jeksen's birthday is juz beside....
We decided to celebrate my birthday at night and count down for his birthday!!!
Lolx!!! So funny!!!
Mei n Ching, dont forget our date to NUSS on 1st of Aug ya!
I wan to eat buffet!! now slim down 1st!!! wait for the buffet oh!!!

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I am 20yrs old, single and available!!!
Waiting for my special 21st summer!!!
soon after will be 21st, single and available alrdy...
eeee!!!!
Good luck to myself!!!

When things go well, sth goes bad...

2008-07-23T14:16:00.005+08:00

1st this is a new post!!! 2nd I would like to announce that Ong Tien Yin (Moshi) is officially stepped down from ISC president seat! Thanks for all my contribution and help, now is the time that i have my own life!!! Finally, i can step out ISC MC stuff, and i am no longer needed for the selfish world...

These few days, think through alot... What is the purpose for coming Singapore and RP? Studying, hence club work shld not be primary... however, when advisors need you, you have to put it primary, when they do need you anymore, they will tell you, study hv to come 1st... Correct? Funny? Contradict? However, juz wan to say, here ends my RP ISC MC life ya! Guys, take care and wish you all the best! Well Well Well, I-Star Hosting ended... I dont think that i did a good job... And i dont think that i enjoyed as well... President visited our sch ytd.... Really wasting time and manpower juz to welcome him for not more than 1 hr! Is so fake....

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And now, i have been trapped in a dilemma again, which one i should prioritize? shall be ISC or SC? one is my root and another is my council... for now, i can only accept 1st come 1st serve, pls dont blame me for not support either one of u... reserve me 1st and i will entertain who 1st... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------
I feel that every time when one thing goes well, another one doesn't... I am finally out of ISC MC, but my health start to show a warning signal... 1st was sore throat, headache, fever, 2nd was toothache, 3rd was lip swollen, 4th was dizzy when stand up after squat down. and now TOOTHACHE AGAIN!!! What is the PROBLEM with me??? Juz went for dentist in Sg, it cost me 69 bucks! 69bucks with a teeth X ray, and antibiotics, painkillers and consultant fees only! The dentist told me to do extraction then put a braces or root canaling which cost around 1k plus... And the dentist advise me to go back msia and do it... I am going to waste my BIG 21st BDAY ANGPAO from my dad to my TEETH!!! I am wasting money again!!! Heart so PAIN!!!

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Just ended Ching's birthday... We went to 24hr Swensen in Orchard to celebrate though we went quite late and went home late too... was really worthwhile! Mei & I successfully greeted Ching at 12am!!! Have not seen them for quite sometimes lo!!! Nvm, going to meet again at my 21st summer's eve!!! Yeah!!!

My 21st summer is going to come!!! And b4 the 21st summer, i kno that i am goin to be broke! and goin to undergo bad luck days!!! haiz~~~my teeth!!! I am really wish my 21st summer will be good and brings me luck!!! brings me happiness and spread it to my dad, mum, bebe and friends!

unofficially stepped down!!!!

2008-07-13T23:01:00.002+08:00

I am Here to Announce:
Ong Tien Yin is unofficially stepped down from ISC president seat!!!
YEAH!!! Going to be official in 2 weeks time!
Thus, my dear sisters, friends, guys, girls, i am available for booking soon~~~

Finally has finished a 3 days 2 nights ISC Leadership Training Camp...
it was a sleepless, tiring BUT meaningful, enjoyable and high CAMP...
why sleepless and tiring,
cos lack of manpower and **** wasn't working but he tot he did alot u kno???
why meaningful, enjoyable and high
1st muz thks to my whole bunch of SISTERS!!!
-Shan, Peggy, Hiong, Xiaoyin and Anthony~~~
2nd will be the new batch of ISC MC ya
-they r really diff. from the last batch, they r very nice juz lack of the nv give up spirit!!!

Anyway, what we did:
-Blind fold, night touring (This is the Best)
-Station activity (This is the last one)
-Paper activity and etc...(This is the 2nd Best)

For the blind folding is really damm scary!!!
The tunnel to Agora Hall...
And we had to watch out all of their steps...
and being anyhow touched or hit by them (which were blind folded)
And the end of the camp, they threw me up!!!!!
Finally kno how the cheer leaders are so brave!!!
And was scary lo!!!

Anyway, is goin to end my life in ISC MC~~~
Yeah~~~ So relaxed...
but when goin to be relax, emptiness how?
ppl r tend to contradict themselves...
juz like me, abit scared of the life without ISC that make my life so packed and tiring
but meaningful, contented...
Is time for me to escape from the politic worlds,
and stop seeing the hypocrite/fake people and slackers...
And enjoy my simple life!!!
I am back to simple ya!
Hope i can smile as simple as the beginning in RP!

I am juz a simple girl...
However, perhaps, hving these years in spore,
meeting many hypocrite, faker, backstabbers,slackers, "smokers" ...
they hurt me...and i got hurt...
and for self defending, i juz cover myself up.
Cover with a independent, strong, capable girl,
i am not strong as u all said if u really kno me,
i need someone to support me,
i need someone to listen to me,
i need someone to lean on,
i need someone....it can be one, two, three, four and more...
but i juz wan to say, i am not as strong as u see....

I like to laugh at silly things,
I like to do watever i can do to share my happiness wif everyone,
I dont like to believe the people will harm me,
I dont like to deny a people's personality,
I like to have fun,
I like to talk and share my feeling,
I dont like to hide my true feeling and smile fakely,
I dont like to talk in politically right manner....
I am juz so simple...
I wan to share my happiness...
hence is time to gain back my real self...
and share my happiness wif everyone!
is the time to let u guys count on me instead everytime let u all wori!

Thanks all of u that hurt me b4...
u taught me lessons
Thanks all of u that surround me...
u always support me
Thanks all of u that love me...
u always let me lean on and help me...
Without u all, i wont be a complete piece~~
THANKS ALL OF U and I LOVE U!!!

Perhaps my weakness is juz so simple,
that when u do a simple action, call me in a simple nickname, look at me in a simple manner,
i will juz melt and expose my childish and girlish self...
i am silly i kno...
juz silly as u always mentioned
sometimes might be piggy head, sometimes might be dummy...

All the best to myself ya!!
Jiayou!!
FYP, SC, BF Recruitment Drive!!!

finally everything ended...(temporarily only)

2008-07-08T13:30:00.005+08:00

First, thanks all of my FYP teammates...except***
FYP presentation was done smoothly on last weds (1.7.08)
Finally i felt relieved abit...
since ISC Election is going to an end as well...
Camp will be happened this weekends!!!
Yeah... everything is going to finish...

Went out wif Mei to shop shop last last Sun,
So fun!! YEAH!!
Went to her house wif ching after that,
I like the days we chit chat, updates, talk cock...
so fun!! dig dig dig....next time to ching house???
I miss u gals everyday oh!!!
since ching's tomato nails peel off alrdy...
any outing??? ching's birthday..wahahaha!!

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Last Sat, went out with Ilung to buy Zi Chieng's birthday gift
Ilung and I watched a movie, Hancock, before we went to Chieng's celebration
Hancock is a really nice movie, however is just abit sad for the ending...
But it is really a worthwhile movie!
Went to ToaPayoh for Chieng's celebration,
I was so attracted by the Lord of The Ring III showed on Channel 5...
Sorry Zi chieng....
Went off earlier to meet Howe Luen to pass her Weichao's present...
Weichao was going to Australia for further studies, so nice rite?

indonesian restaurant in lucky plaza...very nice

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Sunday continue-ing celebrate birthday...but is a belated birthday for Wilson...
We went to Escape!!!

Escape is still the same, just like the time went with Simon, Khin and Haoren...
But people i went to this time was different and was funnier...haha
We played go kart for 4 times (3 for single, 1 for double),
then pirated ship and all the spin spin thingy...
Was nice and fun!!!
But was a tired as i woke up at 7:30am, nvm was worthwhile lah...
Luckily bought a correct gift for Wilson, wallet... he likes it alot... so happy...
Saw ginette in the cosplay show in downtown east after escape...
so excited!! haha!!!

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Suddenly feel like my life is quite empty or blank after everything finish...
Kinda of contradict rite?
When it is not ended, i feel so pissed off
But now is like start to feel so empty...
haha...ppl is so weird...
Today saw guowei, suddenly miss my FYP teammates...
together too long, but suddenly will nv see each other for a week,
kinda of miss them, so shy...haha
hope everything will be fine soon...
I hope i can balance it...

just a normal day...is so relax...
but i have it too many days, and will start to feel scare...
how?

**bf recruitment, SC, FYP II, friends and family gathering....
i am waiting for my summer
my 21st summer...

wat a PACKED schedule!!!

2008-06-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

Here i come to complain alrdy~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Recently was packed and packed and packed!!! abit sick alrdy lo!!!

I was fully occupied by.........................
-ISC Election
-FYP
-SU

Y my life is so pathetic that always occupied by these 3 things!!!
I wan to have so private life lo!!!
Monday though skipped school, but unfortunately i hv to go to school for the I Star...
Then Weds go back school for FYP Poster....
But how come they can late for more than 1 hour???
Watever...then paste the Election Poster in library~~~
Thurs and Fri were ISC Election Nominees Interview...
All of them are good!!! How to pick??? headache again???

Next week so packed!!!!!!!!!! Havent passed next week... then packed alrdy!
monday- SU training + Welfare Department Meeting
tuesday- SU general meeting
Wednesday - FYP presentation
thursday - ISC MC Decision Making
friday- Ros birthday chalet
sat - Zi chieng birthday party
sun - wilson birthday celebration (tentative)

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO MANY PPL hving birthday during JULY!!!!!!!! CRY!!!!!!

Watever the case tmr i am going out wif Mei and meeti wif ching and go to Mei's house!!!
I wan go shopping!!!! DESTRESS!!!

Suddenly feel like kissing~~~ how???
I wan to kiss??? anyone???
KISS~~~

School Reopen...

2008-06-17T15:04:00.002+08:00

Today is the 2nd day of school...
Where is my Motivation???
"Hello"!!! *knock* *look under the table*
I could not really find it...
Perhaps i should thank to my holiday...
Make me feeling more want to have a break!

I had successfully moved out already...
Staying wif landlord who are a pair of couple,
They are quite nice just abit stingy on the utility
and care abt the scratches on the floor...
I like the room, it is so nice and spacious...
but my home feeling has gone....
Just dont have that kind of going back feeling much...

However, moving house is such a tiring job!
So pls, i dont wish to move within this yr at least!
Thanks to my mum, my aunty, Ching and Mei...
Who had helped me alot on Sunday...
Thanks Ching n Mei even help me on unpacking lo!
Or else, i think i will juz let it luan~~~ hehex...
Wif them, i can just say RELAX...
They are 2 of my true friends that make me feel secure...
no need to afraid of wat to say
no need to afraid of nth to say
cos mei sure will hv sth to say and ching sure 3838 one...
no need to afraid of quiet...
usually quiet will be the words when all of us tired and slp...
hahax!!!
Luv U all!!! Muacks!!!

After unpacking, went out with Wilson to watch Narnia 2!!!
(IS NOT A DATE, CHING)
It is a very nice show
if w/o someone who sitting beside me keep on telling me jokes and laughing "Susan's Cheek"
I dun kno y...
I suddenly feeling down after the show...
Perhaps the song?Perhaps i hv to go back my new room...
I like the ending song...

"The Call-Regina Spektor"

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye..

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

Started from that, i become abit emo...
Am i goin to have my depression again?
How to cheer my life?
How to get back myself?
How to make my smile back...
I really wonder....I really dunno....

Finally...wooo

2008-06-13T12:51:00.003+08:00

I have been longing for a break for so long!!!
Finally it came and going to finish soon....
It is too short! 2 weeks only!
I have not been feeling relaxed even this moment....
So here, i am going to vomit all those blood out here...haha...

1st week of vacation was spent in lab...my fyp!
Though doing FYP is really tiring, it is meaningful to me!
So i can go through it...
Go back home then think about how to sell our furniture away...
Helping here and there to find room....

2nd week of vacation
Monday... went back to school...
To have meeting (OMG, my management life coming back???)
The meeting, i can only say is pointless...
Hey, how come student council and advisor have such a pointless and meaningless meeting???
Feel like wasting my time!
Student Council will have a hard time, if continue being like this...
I was really fed up of management life...
pls dont make me do work halfway....

And also another big news was told in the late afternoon!
My FYP report have to submit to Dr Alvin by 12nn Thursday!
Omg!!! hence i skipped the council camp and rushed my report like hell....
In the end submitted, but i was really dead!

Since Monday, i started having nightmares and couldn't sleep deeply....
I dunkno wat i should do? insomnia again?Omg!
Tomolo i will have to move all my stuff to a new house!
I am going to leave Blk843 and change to Blk807!!!
Waste my efforts on unpacking and packing!!!
Somemore i have to keep on finding ppl for buying old furnitures!
Cry... i am really under pressured until i dun feel like doing anything anymore!

Recently, feeling my bad temper come back...
I start to easily feel frustrated and irritated...
How?? should really control and be considerate to others!

Last Sunday, actually i cried at home...
Was arguing with my dad n mum abt the house problem..
the stupid landlord... and the agent!
And my selfless attitude!
My dad keep telling me, put your hand on your heart,
if you have done your best and enough, dont care wat others say
you have already fulfill ur principles, fulfill ur obligation!

Last night was chatting with Oo...
She mentioned that i have changed...juz i didnt realized...
I used to be simple...but now... not sure...
Admit that i have changed... change to someone quite complicated...
Not just simply smile at u,
Not just simply forgive everyone,
Not just simply do everything for others...
Yes i do, i will still do all those to my true friends!
I like to hang out with them!
I will be simple only when i in a secure state...
My sensitivity are getting stronger...
Hence i dont feel secure easily... and i start to defend myself from being hurt...
I pretend nothing, i jus simply do my part!
People are really selfish...
They can make sure of you, can saying bad words, push all the blame and responsibility to you behind your back...yet they looked like ur buddy, yet they looked like ur sister!

I had enough of that...
I had enough on seeing those fake faces...esp in management life...
I am tired... I need a rest...
yet i cant stop...wat kind of life is tat???

Oo asked me, do you have any guy let you to lean on?
ans is NOLO!!!
that is y i cant afford to fall down...
I am just like a seashell that afraid of being hurt...
I wan my smile back!!! A simple smile that melt myself! haha

Diary of Counting Rose & Chrysanthemum Petals..

2008-06-02T13:11:00.009+08:00

First, i am not in a self suppression state... Credit to Ching n me myself....hehe.. Finally think through and really felt that i have though too much! I shall not sacrifice a friendship due to i think too much.... What happen in the future...shall leave to future me shall not kill away my present life, present friends.... hehe...so here end the previous post puzzle...

Last tuesday, was kinda of funny... I have been having dizzy spell all these days.. Perhaps i am going to die soon.. Anyway, in the end i didn't go to school but i woke Peggy up lo.... But in the end, still the same, both of us skip school...hehe

Due to ISC Welcome Tea and Peggy's UT,
We went to school around 2pm...
Welcome Tea had a not bad response....

After tat, 7 of us, Peggy, Yunjia, Xiang, Xiaoyin, Huishan, Wilson and I went to Bishan for dinner...
We were talking the funniest thing we met in the train all the way to Bishan..
Even the strangers aunty uncle also laugh (is an chio...) at the side lo...

Last Wednesday was a complicated day (dunno which words to express my feeling)
In the early morning, Wilson and I went to have my ROTI PRATA in Woodlands Centre...
The taste is still acceptable but not that nice as i imagined....haha

After that, due to his workshop will only start at 1pm...
We went back to my house...
I continued playing my game while he was helping me to install program for using N80 as webcam...
Haha.. i admit, i slacked... really like this kinda of relax life...
Wednesday is the best!

Around 12 plus, we went back to school...
I went to hostel office to collect my deposit!!
Yeah, 354!!! But... i used up for my diet review...
Then broke in the end...haiz..

my leg is so big...

my camera is better!!! bleh!

After finished diet review, went back home to prepare for peggy's birthday surprise!
Yunjia, Huishan and Xiang spent an afternoon to cook for peggy...
It was very nice!!! Yunjia, you can marry alrdy!
After finished eating, johnson that gang then arrived...

However, i realized one thing!
I scare of huge crowd...
I dunno what I should say...
I dun like to engage with big crowd...
I would rather be alone or face with a few..
I seriously have no ideas how come i become like this...
But i feel that i am weird...
Start to be antisocial... I dont like mingle around or even talk sometimes...
I juz like the relax life i have always....
Alone? or A few? dunno y...

Last Friday, SU EXCO Inauguration...
I dunno i shld be happy or sad that i have been selected as Welfare officer for 6th SU EXCO
I juz start to tired of having those life with planning...meeting...discussion...mingling wif unknown ppl....

Here ends my weekdays...
My weekends was spent for ROOM HUNTING...
I will be moving again on 14th of June...
Finally get a room opp our school with 380...
the room is big and nice..
hope the owner is nice too!!!

I am tired...so tired of ppl...
I am sian of handling all the club and union stuff...
I am starting to feel tired of seeing different kind of ppl...
showing different faces to different ppl...
wat shld i do??? I dun kno..
I juz need a corner to stay with, a shoulder to lean on, a hand to hold on, a person to talk with...
I kno i am not as independent as what others see..
However, i am juz a weird ppl tat like to rely on ppl once i realize he/she is nice and get closer with me...

I know i am thinking too much... I know i am weird...
I know...
Continue on counting flowers petals....

Ends here...

Self Suppression

2008-05-24T09:34:00.005+08:00

Hi to myself....y?
-As i am talking to myself...
-As i am listening to myself...
-As no one really come and visit...
-Hence no need to hi all, just hi to myself is enough...

Here are some updates...
0. OSA ended...

1. Went out wif my high school Besties last Sat

2. Watch movie (What happen in Last Vegas) and dinner with Ilung
3. Went to pray in Sri Lanka Temple and Burmese Temple with Ed,Ching and Mei

4. Went out with Wilson and watch movies (Laoshi jia Laoda & Chocolate)
5. Celebrated joyce's birthday in Clarke Quay

I dunno y i woke up so early today...
Inside my mind is full of yesterday...

The beginning of the day which is 7am (my waking time), Wilson sms me to make sure i wake up in order to prevent me from being a sticker to stick on my bed...as i told him that i scared i wont be able to wake up the day before...and 7:30am, Ilung sms me to check my health condition as he knew that i was not really feeling well since the day before...

And the conclusion is I AM REALLY DIZZY until I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL..but thanks to these 2 make me awake and feel bad if i dont go to school...

Finally i went to class, our team had only 2 members with me included! But i think is still ok, not that hard...After finished the class, i went to Dhoby Ghaut YMCA for OSA debriefing...the meeting was started from 7pm till 10pm!!! As i mentioned, i was dizzy, i seriously want to faint liao...

Wilson called and asking me harshly why i was hungry but not eating and for being so late still in the meeting...i couldn't answer actually...And i really dont kno i should be happy or sad...
Happy for someone who care about me until so angry....
Sad for someone who doesn't fall for me concern me that much will only make me feel sad...

After 10:10pm, meeting officially ended...Supposed to go Clubbing with Zi Chieng, Bryant, Ilung them, but i couldn't...really my head was spinning....Ilung insisted sending me to MRT, in the middle, we were talking, chatting, joking...while we were taking the escalator down, he coincidentally hold my fingers (due to my hands is unnaturally sensitive, i will pull back my hands when i see sth not right!). I was feeling very weird, then he told me that he couldn't really stable stand on the escalator so he wanted to hold my hands, and he changed to hold my wrist...

I am seriously in a puzzled state...
1st is Ilung 2nd is Wilson...
1st is same age as me,
-contact me almost everyday
-concern me and worry me
-gentleman and considerate
-busy man
-experience: nearly hold my hands, keep on stucked popcorn into my mouth
-question: does he fall for me? or do i think too much?

2nd is younger than me 1 yr...
-keep in touch almost everyday and every nite
-concern me and worry me... he insisted on pulling me out from the self suppression
-not tat gentleman compare to 1st but he is considerate
-he is flirty ( i mean have a lot of female good friends)
-he is the one who open the door and pull me out from the depression and suppression...
-he liked jiayi b4...
-huishan and I dont hv a good feeling on him at 1st...
-he remember those small tiny things i told him...
-experience:
1. We sat at couple seat for movie
2. He asked me whether think of being his gf b4...
3. He said that he had thought of being my bf b4...
4. He said that he want to marry before...
5. He said that he liked me (in a joking way)
6. He said he prefer not to ask him like me or not...
7. He told me not to think too much always..
8. I asked him to greet his mum happy birthday and he said he will indicate me as possible future daughter in law...
9. He always show webcam to me...
10. He told me actually he easily to fall in love but he is limiting himself now in order nt to influence his result...
-question:
1. does he like me?
2. do I like him?
-Yes, i think i have a good feeling towards him... however, good feeling can have many but like can only have one, i am not sure i reached that state alrdy or not?
3. does he miss me always?
4. does he ever fall for me?
5. can he stop limiting himself?
6. WHAT AM I DOING SIA!!!!!
- But i have to admit, i will miss him always... and i am those ppl easily fall with someone as they make me feel reliable... That is y i dont like to rely on ppl....He makes me rely on him but he is not the one... it is to tired for me... I dont wan the last happen like to wangbo happen again... I cant!!! I cant afford to break my friendship with him, and i cant afford the puzzle i had in my mind now... Wat he want and wat i wan? I dont wan to be unclear, if friends juz give me a distance, if more then we can continue...

Somemore recently some many facebook or dont kno where de guy add me and start ask me out!!!! WHO THE HELL ARE THEY!!!!

I am in a puzzled state and i gtg for showering and working...chaos~~~

My air is Fresh!!!

2008-04-02T21:52:00.005+08:00

Long time nv really update alrdy... Was too busy and my schedule is so packed!!! ISC...AP...FYP...Matriculation...AP...House Moving...FYP...ISC...RP...ISC...

* Graduation Ceremony for All my Senior!!!

Can i hv some personal life??? Can i hv some time for my bf...oppps i dun hv one!!! Can i have some time for my bebe???

Recently, I have finally moved out from RP Hostel!!! The feeling is damm great!!! Fresh air in the morning, I like it... Everytime when i step out of RP, i feel great... Every morning the way travelling to RP though it is not great but the wind blow to my face and hair.... it is really cool and excited...

RP hostel is not bad with the $214 included GST but there is alot of unhappiness goin there there is alot of troublesome things need to settle... However, i met friends there, i learnt alot at there.... Bye #11-02, Hi #03-83!!!

Finally, i understand wat actually i feel towards him... Actually juz wan someone to care maybe cause i am too tired??? Mentally tired i think... But sorri too bad, i wont be able to sell my physical in order to get my mental... So i think i will be single bah!!!

When is my prince charming???
I miss u ya~~~
Waiting for u...

Somehow I miss you...
Somehow I wait for you...
Somehow I think of you...
Somehow I wish I am beside of you...
Somehow I wish you can sing me a lullaby...
Somehow I wish that i am be wif u now...

You... I am waiting for you...
You... Who r you???

Usual Day...

2008-03-23T22:42:00.004+08:00

Finally, my body cannot take my stress level and tiredness...

I have tried to let myself be more relax during Friday...
I went out wif shichian to Jurong Point and I bought some clothes!!!
It was really enjoyable.. however dun kno y, i will be so cham on Saturday...

I couldn't wake up on Saturday...
I was awake but my head was too heavy and it seemed like swollen...
I was totally cannot open my swollen eyes...
So i cant help, i juz try to open my eyes and sms AP team, that i hv to go there late...
And after several call from AP there, i tell myself, i hv to wake up no matter wat...
And i realized my relative(Menses) came and visited me
(Stupid Maro still ask me wat time they wan to visit me)

After staying in the LT-W2 for AP performance team, my energy was slowly revived and being able to function properly... Thanks everyone for your concern and care!!!
I am alrite now and i still can walk out for a movie wif Maro!!!
No.1 Rule, there is no _____ in this world...
Juz a normal movie, but the ending made me so shocked~~~
Maro was like no feeling abt those scary part... i think he was trying to act!!!
But he is the lucky one!!! He n Joyce n one of their friend Zoee go to Japan today and checked in alrdy!!! SOBS!!! ME STILL HAVE TO DO AP!!!

Today was supposed to have a my Diet Review...
However, I was not able to wake up again due to my sister + buddy, Ronny...
He was drunk and his friends called Cindy at 4am, both of us awake and waiting for him to come our house to stay overnight....However, we waited till 5:30am... he wasnt coming at alll... and both of us decided to slp 1st...

Today was quite relaxing for me as i hv to hv more rest or else AP which is on tmr and the next day... i dun kno how to handle at all...
I cant predict the result of it..
So many complains and the organizers, the teams... haiz....

Was asking myself about the feeling towards him, -----
Actually, i juz feeling like to rely on him...
I cant answer wat is like and love...
And i juz feel to lean on someone now, it sounds so selfish...
He told me honestly that he cant commit to me too..
And he had evil thought towards me while he thinks that i deserve a nice guy as i am a nice gal
I dun kno wat should i do actually?
Having a fling wif him as he suggested?
But i am not sure how i feel..
Juz hope everything will be alrite and settled down for both of us

I wish i can meet someone really concern me...
I wish i can meet someone really makes me feel comfortable...
I wish i can meet someone i trust...
I wish i can meet someone i can rely on...
I wish i can meet someone when i miss him i will smile...
I wish i can meet someone when i received his msg i feel warm feel sweet...

School Vacation w/o Vacation

2008-03-15T20:48:00.006+08:00

My school vacation has already left not more than 1 month time~~~

WHAT I DID???
-Chinese New Year small celebration -Outing with my besties~~~
-FYP (Final Year Project) -AP (Assimilation Program) & Matriculation
-ISC leadership training camp

My dear school vacation has just gone like that... Time reali flies and yet it did wait for no man... I have not been waited by time... It is 2008 and I am going to be 21 soon... Reflect on the past years, how i spent my days? Chatting, Sleeping, Studying, Working, Mumbling, Stunning, Thinking, Doing, Spending Money, Eating, Playing, Shopping, Scolding and etc...

Actually, in this vacation...Many Things are happening

-Many of my besties (girls) are having luv problem!!! But my schedule is so packed and i dont know how to help them... What kind of guys they had... What kind of guys in these years... It is becoming more and more disappointing about relationship and guys~~~

-My emotion was exploited... I am kinda of nv kept my attitude like that... When i was not happy about that i will just say out... it is good or bad???? I am really kinda of pekcek to everyone...do everything hv to be prepared, is not suddenly come out then tell ppl that i wan it and ppl do it for u... nth is taken for granted and when u need then wan to do it... Hv to plan and think properly or else it will be a waste of time and everything as others will feel tired and not interested on it.

-How long i have ever forgotten about the relationship things... it bangs me again this year... i hv forgotten the feeling of love n like after a year of the happen and after almost a year of busy lifestyle... i have forgotten lifestyle... i have forgotten the desperate feeling on getting a bf...
Pls, how come it knocks me again??? y u choose me instead the one beside me??? Ya, i might really need someone... but not now, as i am not in a stable condition, i am not in a complete set of me... i have to find myself back and there will be the time the one i like being spotted..

-How long i am able to handle myself? i am really out of control in terms of temper and money... I must be someone more independent. I cant rely on anyone, as it will make me return to the origin, my shoulders are having more weight... it is like aching

btw... there are only few relax things that helps me go through the vacation...
-Dinner wif Shichian~~~
Options:

1. Cooking Dinner for ourselves

2. Go out to find Good Foods

I hope my good friday will be good and nice!!! Jiayou!!!

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